it might just all be a facade

Friday, February 29, 2008;

♥ 2/29/2008 06:43:00 AM

When the night fall on you
&you dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
I'll stand by you>>

Another post! (:
Not that i'm really bored &i've nth else better to do, i just feel like blogging, suddenly.

I went Pasar Malam with huili ruiping kokyao aaron on wednesday, after interact. It was just short Pasar Malam walk, cos we went to the small sized one, &we finished walking the whole stretch within 10mins. Hahah.

Had some event organised by CDC toay. Firefighting + First Aid + CPR.
Kind of boring &a waste of time, but my company was great! :D &i did revised my CPR afterall.
Haha, i kind of miss the Little Ann, which is rotting in the Red Cross Room. I miss the times when nirma, chanel &i would teach the rest of the exco FA. &i rmbr how simon lo spoilt the Little Ann's windbag. Haha!
I rmbr myself typig lesson plans, after lesson plans, to teach the cadets.
I enjoy FA alot, i dunno why. I prefer CPR to bandaging. But i like both anyway. (:

The day ended off with a maths paper, then biology practical, before CS.
I shan't elaborate much on it, but i feel that it was mentally draining. Like, i was really tired &exhuasted after the paper. I felt as though i just ran 10km. (: Alright, just kidding.
Biology practical was boringggg. ): But we found ways to entertain ourselves still. Miss calling one another aross the lab. &writing retarded stuff on the paper towels in lab, &sending it across the classroom. (:
CS, last lesson of the day, before the event, let us off rather early. So the 10 of us (minus desmond who's involved in the CDC) headed down to the bigger sized Pasar Malam. &ky, huiyee & i had our very first Ramily burger.
Well, nothing really fanastic. But still, it's worth a try. (:

Nothing else much left to said.
But i was feeling sad today in school leh!
TSK. Thank goodness i had the girls with me. (:
I'll try to stay &remain happy.
&i hope everyone's happy too!

Labels: Pasar Malam, Stay happy wenfang (exclamation mark)

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

;

♥ 2/29/2008 06:23:00 AM

Oh why you look so sad
Tears are in your eyes c'mon &come to me now
Dont be ashame to cry, let me see you through
'Cos i've seen the dark side too>>

JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING. JOAQUINA LIN YAN^2 QING.

I'm sorry for forgetting your chinese name. I'm sorry for claiming that Wanqing is your name.
I'm sorry for mispronouncing the correct one. \:
So here's my promise to you! I'm gonna dedicated a post to you. (:

Dear goody friend,
Hello! (: You're my new-found friend, back in sec3. I remember having the impression of you as unapproachable &dao. Hahah! &oh, how could i forget? In sec2, you &lissa &gang love to sit outside the classroom, bend over the ground to complete homework &stuff.
Then come sec3, we weren't so close in the beginning. But somehow, cos of valerie chua, we kind of got to hang around tgt during class/breaks, &that's how this pretty friendship started!
Rmbr those studying for O level period? We hang around to study, focusing on biology &both maths, more than physics &chem?
Rmbr the time we thought of giving up on chem totally, but still hang on to it at the last min?
Rmbr the time when you &valerie came over to stay over at my place to supposedly 'study' for Os?
Rmbr that night, when we went down to play with candles &lanterns?
Rmbr midnight, you shut the toilet door so clumsily, that you had part of your elbow flesh stuck in the middle of door. So badly, til you've a rather bad blueblack?
Rmbr the next morning, we woke up to these really terrible bad haze?
Rmbr when we got posted to pjc, how anti we felt?
Rmbr how excited &happy to find out that we got posted into the same class?
Rmbr (&the list goes on).

(: I'm truly grateful for a friend like you! No kidding.
Hahah. Though we're kind of drifted now. With you having your own group of friends, &me with mine. With us no longer in the same class. &with those so ~~damn~~ busy schedules.
It's really tough to just find a time to sit down &have a nice chat. ):
But hey, you've gotta know that i miss you &your company, your nonsense &your presence, ALOT.

So dear girl, let's find a time to sit down &spend some time catchin up tgt!
Oh oh! &the s25 gathering! :D

♥you!

Labels: post for joaquina lin YANQING

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008;

♥ 2/27/2008 06:42:00 AM

I'll do anything, just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh, somehow i cant put you in the past
I'll do anything, just to fall asleep with you
Would you rmbr me, 'cos i know i wont forget you>>

OUCH! :'(
I pull my right thigh muscle during pc this afternoon. How dumb, how retarded.
&my hiccups are back. ): I caught it before pc. During pc, ruiping said she'll fined me a hiccup a dollar if i continue. I hiccuped 17more times, before i could stop.
But then, it came back! :\

Class was fun today, full of laughter still. (:
I seriously think it's the girls who made the day. &the guys of cos. :D
We din less of the 'da han ming guo' thing. Rp taught us a new one, 'I CANT HEAR YOU~'.
Still, it's comical. :D

Oh well, dont want to elaborate too much but i was feeling a tad sad today. :\
But i was strong &got over it within a short period of time.
I want to stay happy!
Everyone should too, y'know. (:
G'nights!

Labels: stay happy (fullstop)

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008;

♥ 2/26/2008 07:00:00 AM

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, i can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait, ican wait forever >>

Greetings! (:
Today's such a happy day for me. I dont exactly know the reason why, but i rmbr myself being happy &laughing quite often throughout the days. I think it's because of my girls. (:

We went totally mad shouting 'TA HAN MING GUO' -clap (x5), throughout the day.
Huiyee started it during chem tut, &it lasted til the end of the second extra lesson we had. Hahah!
Chem extra lesson was crap, but at least i had nice company. The guys were super irritating &noisy, but i know they're still nice afterall. (:
I had nice company home too! I got so excited over a Pasar Malam which is set up near our school, so ruiping suggested i should send down a relay msg to the class. Stating we should have a class outing this thurs. Buy food from the Pasar Malam, &go to a nearby playground to eat &play. :D
&so i did! But turns out that we had some civil defence course which is compulsory for everyone on thurs. ): What a bummer.
It ruins the plan! TSK.

I dont rmbr anything else which got me so cheery. :\
I just know my day was crazy, &full of laughs. (:

I'm trying to stay happy everyday! Today, i succeeded. &i hope i'll too, tmr.
Cos i love being happy. It's just, so good for health? I dont know. It's just so comfortable &nice. Heh.
I hope everyone's feeling happy!

TA HAN MING GUO!

Labels: HAPPY DAY (exclamation mark)

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Monday, February 25, 2008;

♥ 2/25/2008 05:55:00 AM

We all need a best friend, to understand
A best friend, to take your hand
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you>>

I feel the need &urge to let my inner feelings be heard. Not all, but at least those words which i need my friends to know, so they will understand.

To my drifted apart friends (taszemian, valeriachua, yipyunxing, jacquelinelee, nirmalayga, joaquinalin, carissahong, yuye, joshuakong, edmundchoo, aaronteo)

; I don't know if it's just me, or it's just the truth, but things between us aren't the same anymore.
We no longer msg each other like we used to, we no longer flood each other with mails, we no longer hang out like we used to, &we no longer act like we used to.
In fact, sometimes, we're no more than just 'hi-bye' friends.
Isn't it saddening? To see the friendship accumulated fade into dust? To see that friends, whom i hold so ~~darn~~ close to my heart, friendship which i built my love &trust on, just crumbles to the ground.
As upset as i am, as disappointed as i am. I'm still too stubborn to admit &show the fact that i hate it when friendship fades with time.
Y'know, i may act as if i don't need your friendship anymore. No, it isn't pride, nor is it ego. It's more of the fact that i feel 'I'm no longer needed in your life'. &cos of that, distance btw us just gets further &further.
I'm afraid to take the first move, cos i fear rejection. I fear you telling me straight in the face that i'm no longer needed. I fear of myself being an irritant, yet i know nothing bout it.
But hey, although things btw us changed with time, although we might no longer be what we used to do, although some things just change &we cant find them back. I need you to know that, i've been always here, &i'll always be.

Yours truly,
Wenfang.

There're still millions &zillions of things left unsaid. But sometimes, words do come a little tough. &all the pharses doesnt seem appropriate. :\

For the past few months, i've been wondering 'why is everyone changing?'
&it struck me recently that, maybe the problem doesn't lie with 'everyone changing'. Maybe it lies with the fact 'why am i still staying?'

So much with the sad post above. Just a happier note to end this post off: I had fun with the girls at my hse today. Laughter shared, joy shared, &food shared.
Loads of love! ♥

Labels: letter to friends

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, February 23, 2008;

♥ 2/23/2008 06:52:00 AM

I bet she's beautiful, the girl he talks about
&she's got everything that i have to live without
She'd better hold him tight, give him all the love
Look into those beautiful eyes, &know she's lucky>>

Hellooo there! (:
Ask me why am i in a happy mood!
The answer is : Friday's here!
TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF .. (&it goes on)

Anyways, PC today was awesome. (:
I mean, although part of me really wanted to get the 2.4 run, tgt with other 5stations, over and done with. But the other part of me kind of dread it, cos i know i wont do exactly well for the run now. ): I mean, i pant like ~~shit~~mad everytime i cover a short distance now. &i feel as though i might just puke out that gallons of phlegm in me. Ugh.
Something's wrong with me. Something's very wrong with me.
So (back to point), PC's fun. After afew sets of different exercises, we had a game of Captains ball, within the class girls. (:
I dunno, either it's been really long since i had a game, or this game is really fun. Hahah.

Mm, sometimes, i really wish i have a thousand hours packed into a day.
Then, perhaps i'll can afford to spend more time, on every single issues &responsiblities, duties &assignments, which i have at hand.
I know, i know. I've been mentioning this issue, for the 12345678987654321th times alr! But i just feel the need to reiterate the point. Like, seriously. I need to get this load off my chest.
Y'know, i've been feeling guilty, over the silly fact that i can't afford more time, to anything &to anyone.
Like, i can't exactly find the time to go out with my friends every now &then, &stuff like that. Which resulted in smth really upsetting like: drifting away from the 'then-close-now-no-longer' friends.
Like, i honestly cannot find the time to start on my homework/revision. I mean, i need to get down to my studies! The thing is, with all the new things taught in school everyday, &those old chapters bothering me. I can't figure out, which one to start on.
&then, comes my passion for Red Cross. I can't dedicate enough time for it. Everytime i dedicate this amount of time for it, it just always seems to request for more. Not that i dislike the fact that i have to spend more time in RC. FYI, i'm not! &just to make matters worse, my mum just isn't supportive in me being engaged in RC activites. ):

): Not tryin to sound emo. I'm just trying to prove to everyone that "Time is a limiting factor which is depleting really soon. &we really ought to start finding other alternatives for it."

Say, Proper Time Management perhaps? (if it'll ever, ever works)
):

Labels: more time please(exclamation mark), TGIF

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008;

♥ 2/20/2008 07:05:00 AM

I won't scream and I won't call you
Never know how far I've fallen
I won't loose my faith
I know I still believe in something
You won't see me pound the walls or curse the gods above
Because I still believe in angels &I still believe in love>>

Tuesday's ending! (:
We're left with Wednesday, Thursday &Friday, before we hit the best days of the week Saturday &Sunday.
Gleeful!

Y'know, i've always enjoy being invovled in long conversations with friends. No, no. Not just those hi-bye, what did you eat, did your assignments kind of conversation. But really, conversations in depth. (: Heh.
&i managed to have one with hy since we're catching the same bus today. (:
It seems pretty long since i had a proper conversation with someone. Hah.

Anyways, my voice's like dying away bit by bit. I dont even sound like myself! ):
The sorethroat's still there, tgt with the cough and terrible phlegm. Please, i think i've like gallons &gallons of phlegm stuck in my body.
Ugh, this sounds horribly disgusting. :\

I just need you to know that i'm trying to remain that bit of sanity in me. But everytime i got reminded of that truth, my sanity just slip away, bit by bit.
&you've to know, how much effort i put in. To try to remain happy, but somehow. It isn't an easy job.

Labels: i'm still sick, tues's ending

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008;

♥ 2/19/2008 06:50:00 AM

If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy
&i'd be the best friend, you'd fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing, watching the sunset
Fade to black, show the names, play that happy song>>

It's a typical monday again. With the same ol' boring lessons, same ol' Monday blues, &same ol' routine.
Well well, thank you for wonderful classmates, yet once again. (:
Mm, i felt smth different about this monday. &then i realised "oh right, fd comp's over."
Hahah, i'm differently going to miss all the continous counting for 1-8, and the song 'We're all in this tgt', definitely.

I went to school feeling really weak. Not just physically, but also mentally.
I detest going school without preparing for the lessons, like completely the assignments, finish studying for tests, and stuff like that.
But this being the second year in JC, as much as i still detest that feeling, i have to admit that i'm kind of use to feeling like that.
TSK.

Well, i think it's just me. ):
it just struck me, rather recently that for the past 17years of my life, i'm too afraid to love.
Be it love for my parents, for my brother, for my extended family members, for my friends, or for my then special someone. I'm just to afraid to show the love i have for them.
As, for a proloned period of time, it might appear as though my love fades away, or isn't as strong as it used to be. But no! In actual fact, the love has always been there, it's just me, who refused to show it openly.
I don't know what's wrong with me. :\ It's not as if someone will execute me for just showing my love. Why is it that i'm refusing to show it/admit it?
All that's supposed to be said, arent. All that's supposed to be done, arent too.
These all results in people leaving as they like, and coming as they want.
&the feelings i have to keep within me is too much, too overwhelming.
Yet i don't know where i found the energy &strength to withstand all these pressure &appear as the wenfang y'all know.

Labels: love for everyone, monday blues

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Monday, February 18, 2008;

♥ 2/18/2008 06:38:00 AM

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, we're there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

Here and now its time for celebration
I finally figured it out (yeah yeah)
That all our dreams have no limitations
That's what its all about

Everyone is special in their own way
We make each other strong (each other strong)
We're not the same
We're different in a good way
Together's where we belong

We're all in this together
Once we know, that we are
We're all stars &we see that
We're all in this together
&it shows when we stand, hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, we're there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

We're all here &speaking out with one voice
We're going to rock the house (yeah, yeah)
The party's on now everybody make some noise
C'mon scream &shout
We've arrived becuase we stuck together
Champions one &all

We're all in this together
Once we know that we are
We're all stars &we see that
We're all in this together
&it shows when we stand hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

We're all in this together
When we reach, we can fly
Know inside, we can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see, there's a chance
That we have &we take it

Wild cats sing along
Yeah, you really got it goin' on
Wild cats in the house
Everybody say it now
Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Lets get to it
Time to show the world

We're all in this together
Once we know that we are
We're all stars &we see that
We're all in this together
&it shows when we stand
Hand in hand, make our dreams come true

We're all in this together
When we reach
We can fly, know inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see there's a chance
That we have &we take it

Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Let's get to it
Come on everyone!

The comp has ended, tgt with afew of months of sweat &hard work, &tgt with the tears of all joy, relief, &sadness.

We din get into top 8, neither did we get into the top 3 for South District.
But i still cant explain how proud i am of this squad. (:
Having to learn &memorise the formations &steps are not an easy job at all. What's more, you guys master the whole formation just within weeks.

Like what i say, i'm looking forward to see how everyone will conquer themselves, &win the trophy within them. Well, they did it.
&i'm proud of it.
So, to the squad: if you're upset or disappointed. Dont be.
Y'all did your best on the competition ground, &this is exactly what all of us are looking forward to.
Y'all did just that, &we'll all leave the competition ground without any regrets. (:

Ginyong Eduardo James Dingquan Junyi Yumni Dian Dawn Amalina Jiaqi Rachel Siying Beatrice Siti Sharina & Guanyu.
Well done.

I felt so sorry bout having to leave the event after round 1. :\
So, after i left, it's a mad rush back home, to grab a change before leaving for dinner at lakeside.
So, total work done on Saturday: zero.

Visiting &visiting.
Reached home only at around 9plus.
So, total work done on Sunday: zero.

Dang, save me from the enormous pile of assignments/tests.
I'm drowning. ):

&on a random note, i think i'll miss fd comp squad 2008. Very much, in fact.
&i hope everyone does. (:

Labels: 500th post, fd comp 08

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, February 16, 2008;

♥ 2/16/2008 05:49:00 AM

Deep in my heart I just know
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
&there's still a long, long way to go>>

First and foremost, happy valentine's day! (:
Who says one needs to have a partner to enjoy this day?
I had fun, giving out tidbits and my little lovely note, with a disgusting typo. &i had joy, seeing smiles &happiness written all over my attached friends. &oh yes, receiving chocs &chocs &bear from friends.
&oh hey! the meetup on that day was great &nice. Heh.

Went back fairfield for the weekly rc training today. &it's also the last training session for the fd comp squad.
Mm, it's heartwarming seeing the squad grow, from a squad which almost all wanted to give up on. To a squad, whom we've placed our faith in, &is ready for the comp. (:
It's nice, definitely. With a little touch of touched. Haha.
All of us prepared a little something for the squad, &it's such a joyful time.

I got reminded of fd comp 05, of which we clinched the top 8 position. (:
I rmbr the fun fd comp camp we had, where the whole squad squeezed into a tent for night party. I rmbr the night drills, &the drills we had in the rain. I rmbr having to wake up at 6plus, to do drill, under ph sir. &i rmbr all the tears &sweat, efforts &determination we all shared. (:
&&not forgetting the euphoria we all felt, &shared, when joan ma'am came up to our squad and announced "Fairfield, you may stay for Round B."
Oh &&& (how can i forget!) Kevin's first comment. "Chey, i thought can go home alr."
Hahah!
Oh well, i miss marching, &i miss the fun fun squad!

Well, tmr's the comp. Although i really dread having to stand in courtshoes for the whole day, &everything else. I'm still looking forward to the event, i'm lookin forward to see how the squad will fare, &i'm looking forward to see how they will conquer themselves, and win that trophy within themselves.
Go, fmssrcy!

For now, i just need to iron my uniform. &figure out a way to complete all my assignments within the span of these two days, with redcross &visiting to do. :\

Anyways, i hope everyone's feeling cheery &happy!
'Cos i'm trying to, and i think i'm succeeding.
Heh.

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008;

♥ 2/13/2008 07:11:00 AM

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when i'm with you
I wanna be the only you need to hold on to
But everytime i call you don't have time
I guess i'll never get to call you mine>>

Everything seems to be so packed today, despite having the rare 1-hour break in school today. :\
It feels so though i've been rushing &rushing to do different things at different venues.
I just seem to be 'on-the-go' today, no breaks allowed in between.
Just rush, rush, &rush.
&i've yet to take a breather!

On a lighter note, i seem to be in a good mood today. (:
Not exactly happy, at least not yet. I just dont feel sad.
Soooo, i think that's an 'yay'. :D

Hokay, today's ending. That's a pretty good sign. (:
&i finally see the goal i've been working so hard for, at the end of day.
The goal: my bedtime.
Heh. G'nights!

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008;

♥ 2/12/2008 07:30:00 AM

I hope you know, i hope you know
That it got nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and i
We've got a little straighting to do>>

So many things to complete, yet so little time allowed.

Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
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Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
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Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration. Sense my frustration.
Dammit, sense it.

I wish i had more time at hand, so i can complete the asignments i have, &at the same time, devote more time &efforts for my passion &duty.
I wish i had more motivation &determination to finish the ~~damn~~ work.
I wish i had the capabilities to do a ~~not okay~~but good job.
&i wish what it takes, to just get over &done with life.
&oh, i hope i can slightly more optimistic towards life, studies, &everything else. (: -looks at ruiping. Haha!

Times like this, i wish i could return to the classroom of yellows&blues.
Val on my left, yy on my right, nirma &grace in front, joa at the side-est.
&rachelmeng in the background shouting,
"Hello. I'm john chew, how may i help chew?"
:D Well, thank god for memories?
Not definitely, but this time, yes.

Anyways, time to hit the study desk again.
Jiayou, wenfang!
&jiayou to everyone who needs it!

Labels: frustrated, JIAYOU

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Sunday, February 10, 2008;

♥ 2/10/2008 06:52:00 PM

Have you ever been left out
Have you felt alone
Have you ever needed
A friend to call your own>>

Have you ever have million of stuff bottled up within you, yet you find nowhere to pour them out to?
Have you ever have feelings within you, which aren't meant to be exposed?

There really isn't much thing to say, cos i cant exactly find the right words. :\
But, it's alright.
Everyone needs to grow up on them own, sooner or later.
&i'll definitely grow out of it. (:

More visiting later in the afternoon til night.
And ~~dang~~, school starts tmr. ):
Sense my s a d n e s s .

Labels: bottled up, school's starting

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, February 09, 2008;

♥ 2/09/2008 07:33:00 PM

You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away
&i dont need no carrying on>>

Cny came, &is (almost) gone.
So, what's the big hoo-ha about this festival anyways?

This cny came at a rather bad timing, for my family. =l
My grandfather's hospitalised, dad's foot injured, and i'm still ill.
BUT, it's hokay! (: Things will get better soon, and it'd better.

Cny's still the norm. Reunion dinner on eve, followed by fireworks watching on highway. (:
Then, visiting, &visiting, &more visiting on the first two dys of cny.
I dont really see the point of cny. ):
When i was little, cny's all about getting goodies, &having to drink cold drinks, &&not forgetting red packets. (:
When i'm slightly older, cny's all about helping around in the house, buying all kinds of alien decorations to doll up the apartment, getting ready for the festival.
But now, cny's all about getting to meet up with relatives whom i might not even know existed, and simply catching up with all the extented family members. (:
&&&for the moment, mahjong! Heh.

So here's the third day of cny, and it's finally free from visiting. Although there's more visiting to do tmr.
It's not that i dislike cny. I like the fact that everyone's happy and cheery, wearing bright red, looking like redpackets, walking on streets, smiling at strangers wishing them 'Happy New Year'.
But the hoo-ha for cny is a little, too much.
Hokay, cny only comes once a yr. So, thank goodness. (:

I went to the docs for the second time today. Got more pills, and an extra MC.
&i'm feeling a tad upset and miserable over something i shant mention here. ):
Mm, maybe if i dont brood over it, i'll get over it?
Wish so, hope so.

&there isn't anything much i wish to elaborate actually.
I'm just wasting time, since now, i'm alone at home. : ]

Toodles!

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008;

♥ 2/05/2008 05:36:00 PM

It's the hardest thing i'll ever have to do
To look you in the eyes, and tell you i dont love you
It's the hardest thing i'll ever have to lie
To show no emotions, when you start to cry>>

I really really (x infinite) need to recover soon.
CNY's just round the corner, and i'll be so sorry if i need to do visiting when i'm as sick as a dog!(sorry, cant find any other animals.)

Running high fever for consecutive two days isn't a relaxing job, at all. ):
And i feel so terrible that i'd rather die. )':

SAVE ME.

Labels: SICK

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Sunday, February 03, 2008;

♥ 2/03/2008 06:57:00 PM

'Cos i'm a big big girl, in a big big world
It's not a big big thing, if you leave me
But i do do feel, and i do do will
Miss you much, miss you much>>

For every camp one attends, one ought to learn something.
Be it you attend the camp as a leader/instructor, as a camper/cadet, or simply as an outsider.
As a leader/intructor, for every camp you attend; you gain extra experience and knowledge. You will learn more bout what to do during hiccups, and what not to do.
As a camper/cadet, for every camp you attend; you gain experience as well. You'll learn more skills, be it leadership skills or what.
&as an outsider, for every camp you step into; you do gain smth too! You now know of the various methods and ways of how to run a camp. (:

So, for every camp which ended, for those who went and learn smth; congrats. You're the norm, and you didnt wste your time!
For those who went, yet did otherwise (learn no butt); a big boo-boo to you. You've not only waste your time, but other people's time as well.

But one thing for sure, i know.
For the fd comp '08 camp which just ended.
Every single one of you guys learnt smth.
(: &this is what i'm grateful for.

I wish for you guys, not only to complete the formation with proper execution.
But also the sharpenss to complete every full turn and armswing.
&the determination to work til the very end with your squadmates and instructors.
&of cos, the joy. which will accompanied you thru this journey of footdrill. (:

(FD COMP!)
"Tgt everyone achieves more. HA!"

Labels: fd comp camp

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, February 01, 2008;

♥ 2/01/2008 05:12:00 AM

WALAO.
YOU SCOLDED US.
I ~~HATE~~DISLIKE YOU pretty much near the core RIGHT NOW.
): <

Hokay, fd comp camp's tmr.
And i'm going for it.
Spell the word 'j o y'. :D

Labels: fd comp camp

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.